I just wanted to say;
I feel like I’ve neglected you a little over the last few weeks- I have been so busy planning Fairs that I haven’t always been fair on you or me or your daddy.
I wanted to create an event to ensure that you don’t grow up in a place that lacks any sense of uniqueness or individuality; a place that has a community that supports each other and I am really proud of the way it turned out, but it’s a tough old balancing act and sometimes it didn’t work quite right.
More than once you’ve told me to stop it when you catch me looking at my phone or answering messages instead of giving you my complete attention and I’m sorry I haven’t been 100% present. When you pick up the remote and pretend it’s a phone or when you ask for a pen and some paper so you can ‘be busy doing your work’ I know that’s because of me.
In years to come of course I want you to work hard, try your best and have a good work ethic but I think maybe 3 and 1 is a touch soon?!
I’m also sorry that this year we can’t get you much in terms of actual material presents but, if it counts for anything (which, when compared to a pretend shop or a dolls house or a scooter it may not) you have my absolute love, pride and adoration.
We have just come back from a weekend at Center Parcs with your Uncle and Auntie, Nanny and Grandad and you had a ball. It was amazing to see you on the balance bikes and careering down the slides but, actually, some of my favourite times with you are the ordinary days.
Tuesday is my absolute favourite.
Nothing is a rush. We go to mother and baby group, sing and play and see our friends. Have some tea and toast and then we might go to your friend Bella’s for some lunch before ballet.
Then, we come home and it’s just the three of us, in our house and we don’t really do anything special.
We colour, we read, we cook tea and we talk to each other. Obviously sometimes there’s a toilet dilemma or a mini melt down but in the main it’s just ordinary, all girls together hanging out.
I love it. It’s my favourite day of the week.
This week we had parents evening at nursery and your daddy and I could have burst with pride reading your little progress books.
You are kind, polite, caring and happy little girls and I couldn’t wish for anything more.
When my work project ended in August I knew I’d need to find something else in the end but I never knew how much I’d love our ordinary Tuesdays. Being properly present with you both as you grow is something nothing can compare to or replace.
I just wanted you to know that really.
You complete me.